Author: nina

Clean, clean

It should have always been

A life for me

A life for you

Forever now I’m in

Continual existence

Forgiveness of my sin

I want to die

I want to live

I wanted you to fly for me

For all the little kids

For all your smart ass kicks

The shot’s been heard

All over the world

The world mourns with me now

I want you to know

How the word’s have sunk in

I want to show you how

to live

Down mindless paths

I follow fast

And seek to know the reason

Did Alice understand

her quest

or recognize the treason?

A hurried sleep

passes evenings reaping

hollowing remission

I swallow pills

effortless fill

endless ill

I endure your will

And only answer to that smile

a daily hour

encompasses a sour aftertaste

As I waste away to nothingness

in your powerful embrace

What was the noise?

Where are the toys

of my lost abandoned childhood?

Did I throw them down

to a bloodhounds dinner

to be the only children

left to find the long, long

way into adulthood?

Where is my little girl?

She whirls and whiles away….

At night I keep my mind in heated

bated, breathless remission

Swallow deep the darkest secret

furnace, hurtful incisions

Hide away the brightest day

of fated, fullest visions

Loving you and losing youth

I seek an exiled mission

to set me free beneath the tree

of knowledge and sought wisdom

I yearn for you and you to see

the growth for you I liason

Tied to me see you only

Alone I sought a reason

Go forth fight on this foulest sea

to see another season

Life for you the fewest know

why I cling to memories illusion

If they only knew you as I do

They’d feed and bless my delusion

Broken windows

bitter twist of fleeting rain

pounds against a shattered window frame

Reaching into my destiny

The water drips away from me

I search and peek into the night

Shock of pain and breath of light

Howling shriek of revenge on me

and yet

and still I seek

Where are you boy? belong to me

I’m sewn to you and you to me

Gossamer thread I’m stretching

far and wide to still the dread

of losing you.

Madness I seek

Madness I find

Madness I read

between all of the lines

Something is there

Calling to me

Someone is here

Why can’t you see?

Separate I’m happy

Separate I’m free

Separate I dream

Timeless melody

Reaching for moments

hoping to be

Everyone’s answer

to questions I seek

Feeling a little secret

Creeping down my back

Feeling life’s great quest

Flushed out of whack

Hiding my memory

Hiding my wares

Hiding from anyone

Who’d even care

Sleep escapes my body this beautiful night of the moon

Today is gone till tomorrow’s dawn

I’m feeling full of my room

Pretty pictures shuddered here

An open window

A cloudy tear

Memories fight on the bloody front line

Kissing, calling in time, sublime

Fruitless vines climb upon my mind

I close my eyes and try again

Where is your face?

What was your name?

4 A.M. and the secrets aren’t clear

Visions squashed and swallowed year after year

I thought the light sweet and guiding my needs

I thought life complete

Until I met you

Now I am lonely

Now I am sad

Now I’m not glad for the things that I’ve had

Because once I had you

and now you are gone

The days are so long

but the nights, they are longer.

Yesterday’s spirits floated down a pair of streets

Waking me from fitful sleep

And ever graceful dreams

I thought that I was stationary

And strapped down ever tight

But as I lifted from my bed

I saw between my body light

Gray slate wings are fanciful things

I never thought I’d use

But flying over my old haunts

I give them sore abuse

Push me up on top of you

Grant me a merciful view

That I may guide your lonely life

Implanting visions new

I thought that I would have some friends

Acquaintances at least

As before according to lore

I only have myself

I treat my soul to bitter gold

And swim in its glorious heat

When you join me, mate

I won’t forget the physical complete

I lost my flesh and all the rest

in Earth’s first law of dust

the dirt and grime combine themselves

And took my body lust

Yet in the time I’ve thought of mine

and yours together sweet

I’ll brightly shine upon your mind

Until the day we meet…

goodbye, my friend, again.

Love and sadness

Weeping Gladness

I love you sweetest

I hope you’ll see

Today I’m here for you

Tomorrow I will be there too

How long is forever?

The beauty of nature

comes and goes

Time like a river wears

and flows

Breathing, Cleansing

Simplicity

Open your heart and

Simply Be

Screaming fish

Flit for an hour

And all the while

I smile at you in the shower

It’s kinda hard

when you have no feet

to walk for miles

to find the dreams

thrown away

for no particular reason

Screaming fish

Sit on your plate weary

Life is seen through ever teary eyes

And I get wary

When you get scary

Stabbing the fish as I cry

Today is gone

the moon has sung

A moments lament

forever wrong

I splish, I splash

This way and that

Until I am swallowed up too